Thursday, March 31, 2011

His Name Was Bobby



And he loved this song
He was barely eighteen.
I was barely old enough to know how young that was.

I had an Elton John songbook. He had a favorite song. 
It was also our song.

**it's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide**

His mother had an old upright piano in the den
I had a lot of time in those days.
He didn't.

So for hours we'd play Bingo. Going over letters and sounds. Letters and sounds. Letters and sounds.  What the epilepsy didn't steal from his mind, the medication took the rest.

**So excuse me forgetting but these things I do / You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue**

And then I'd play for him a song he thought was his very own. "For Bobby" it was written, just under the the title in my now-yellowed sheet music book of the seventies. He made me sing every word. Every time.
No matter how many times he heard it, I must I must I must sing it again. Again. And again.




**it may be quite simple but now that's it's done
...I hope you don't mind. I hope you don't mind that I put down in words.
How wonderful life is while you're in the world**



It was hard to say no to a boy with brown eyes and kisses so sweet
on my cheek
on the bench
of bingo-strewn love
and tunes made of blue
poured
on out-of-tune keys
keeping out-of-time time

**Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen**

I can't sing it today - or hear it - without thinking of him. When I get to the part....
**and you can tell everybody this is your song**
I still break down and cry


Oh I knew he was leaving.
He knew it too.
But we sang
anyway
 I don't play it much anymore
or open the songbook
why do I want to cry?
But one day
I will play it again
Just to see him smile

as he did in those days
when he still believed the world was wonderful
when he couldn't remember his name
or which letter comes after C

before....before....
nothing mattered
but how young eighteen really was 
after all 

and that his name 
was Bobby



**My gift is my song and.....this one's for you.**


13 comments:

dawn said...

A beautiful tribute to Bobby.
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:(
:(

... and one of my favorite Elton songs.


I hope you don't mind that I put down in words...
How wonderful life is while you're in the world.

Sherry Blue Sky said...

So beautiful, so touching. It made me cry, too. Young hopeful innocent hearts, before the heartbreak. Wow, Mimi. What a beautiful, beautiful post.

Jean-Luc Picard said...

Wonderfully written, Mimi

Barbara Shallue said...

What a beautifully-written tribute - that song always sweeps me back in time, too, to a boy with blue eyes.

Jamie said...

Beautifully written story about special memories. You were lucky to know him and he was lucky to have you to play his song.

Fisher and Staff said...

Very very beautiful post.

Patti said...

You brought tears to my eyes, Queen Mimi. I love this song; always have. Early Elton was wonderful.

As the others said above, beautifully written.

Thanks for sharing your teen-aged memories.

Mimi Lenox said...

Bobby was a special human being who never let his illness get him down. He taught me a lot about life..even when we were ridiculously young. He was my once-upon-a-husband's little brother. He died before his 19th birthday from a rare form of epilepsy. I've had him on my mind a lot lately. It was time to write a little bit about him.
I miss his sweetness.

Teri and the cats of Curlz and Swirlz said...

Thank you for sharing this, the human sweetness and sadness of life that are stored in our memories to truly cherish and put perspective into our being...

Misty Dawn said...

What a beautiful tribute, Mimi. Next time, he'll sing it to you :-)

The Gal Herself said...

Oh, Mimi! This is so lovely. I hope somehow Bernie and Elton see this and know the lasting impact their song has had you (and, thanks to this post, on us).

Travis Cody said...

Very poignant.

Ferd said...

Beautiful misty memories!
A real treasure in your memory. Thank you for sharing!
:-)

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