An Unexpected Meeting
I knew one day I'd see you again.
It was odd how you did not rattle me
affect me
overshadow menot even the slightest of sensory meltdown
I felt nothing
just coldness
amusement
pity
sad...
that I ever let you rob me of one iota of my life
And then
you touched my hand
in some familiar way
with a smirk
and a memory of long dirty fingernails
chilled
the warmth
of my smug spot of comfort
in the room of grownup me
thinking somehow I'd "remember" that touch
as if you still had that power
oh, the sliver of electricity I felt.....
so rich
so full
it was huge
reminiscent of lust
gone to spirit
orgasmically mine
all mine
and wholly pure
without the ill-begotten evil that is you
what was your name again?
so full
it was huge
reminiscent of lust
gone to spirit
orgasmically mine
all mine
and wholly pure
without the ill-begotten evil that is you
what was your name again?
alas, it was not the shock value you were after
the only shiver I felt was contempt
and the washing of my hands under hot hot water
that could forever
oh yes
forever
wash
you
away
the only shiver I felt was contempt
and the washing of my hands under hot hot water
that could forever
oh yes
forever
wash
you
away
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34 comments:
Impressive Mimi and powerful.
Such powerful imagery Mimi.
That was great enjoyed it immensly.
It takes a lot of work, and a lot of soap, to wash some relationships away!
It sounds like you're pretty clean now! : )
Shannon - Maybe the "powerful" part comes, for me, in the form of reclaiming the moment and owning it.
I think I just did that.
Akelamalu - Thank you.
AngelBaby - I appreciate the thought.
Queen - It is not my usual funny post, is it? Ahhhh.....layers. Thank God for hot water.
Ferd - As in squeaky.
I hate it when that happens...it's so discombobulating!
And that is how we take back control, and keep it.
Lois - And can be full of freedom if you let it.
Travis - Keeping it is only a handwash away, my friend.
Very powerful. I loved it.
Summer and Babs - Thanks for stopping by and commenting.
Love it! Love it! Love it!
SjP - You know, women are really feeling this vibe. Empowerment. It falls to us, in many different types of relationships, in one form or another. While I hope this sort of dilemma never happens to me within a love relationship, I know that it could be construed that way as emotional victimization too for many women. And men, for that matter.
This was a childhood injury.
I hadn't seen this man (albeit briefly) in over 40 years until last week. It took hard work to get to this point over the course of my adult life. In a way, I'm glad I was able to see for myself that indeed, he holds no sway over any part of me.
It was freeing, and strangely surreal. Even more empowering to publish my thoughts.
Thanks for reading.
I don't know the details behind what triggered this, aside from what you commented above, but I'm very glad to see that you've been able to get past it and make your life your own again. [hug]
Don - Way, way past.
Thanks for the hug, my friend.
Here's one for you.
wow, mimi...that's all i can say. great poetry :)
This is what I'd call the Quintessential Goodbye. Strong words, wise woman.
Ciara - I don't know about the "great poetry" part but it was great therapy.
and thank you, Ciara
Margo - Isn't it odd how one can feel "nothing" and yet so much. Choosing what to feel is where the freedom comes in. Thank you, my friend.
The human psyche is a fickle, fragile thing. Some things are never washed away.
Very human. Very strong. I really liked this.
Songbird - Not completely, no, but I believe that their remainder gives us a choice and sometimes - a voice.
Charles - Thank you, sir.
WOW!
Autumn - I hope you've had a great holiday, my dear.
**sigh**
Wanna hug?
Can I have a snowflake?
Julie - Received. Thank you.
You may have as many snowflakes as you can carry in your pocket.
I completely get this. As you know =) And while we can't really wash away the memories, we can change their color, you know? I like to think mine never made it to blue since I clung so hard to the reds. Now I've mellowed. Pink I think =)
Starr - Pink anger sounds just about right.
Oh. And no need to go to the blue at all...
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