The Day After Christmas ~ Bloggingham In Shambles
The screen has been sliced in the front. A hole in the wall. The door is demolished in the back. My house is in disarray.
This is not what I wanted to see the day after Christmas. A quick trip to the store in midday became a nightmarish reality when I returned.
I thought I could write about this today. But I can't. I'm still dealing with no sleep, can't sleep, won't sleep, insurance craziness, digital pictures and sifting through a ransacked mess with rubber gloves. Every article of clothing in the drawers must be washed because they were touched by this person or persons. The house must be scrubbed because of cigarette ashes everywhere and filthiness I don't even want to think about.
And most of all, how to retain my peace of mind in the midst of wondering if they'll be back.
And then there's the fear.
I've gotta get hold of the fear. Because it has surely gotten hold of me. Soon I'm sure I'll write about how none of this really matters in the grand scheme of things. And how I really shouldn't jump out of my skin when the toaster pops up. And how I called my mother to tell her and burst into tears like a twelve-year-old. And how I can't seem to shake this feeling that someone is still in my home.....rummaging through my cabinets, staring at my grandfather's marbles, touching my laptop which they miraculously left on the couch, picking up my earrings and Christmas decorations, reading my mail, smoking in my kitchen. But not today.
It's not what is missing that I care about. It's how this violation of my home and my things made me feel on a personal level. I can't express that yet without emotion.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
And I'll write about it then.
But not today.
And thanks, I already know you're there.
30 comments:
oh NO!
Mimi...I am so glad you were not home when it happened...I can't begin to imagine how you must feel.
can your son...or the cutlet guy come stay with you?
start to think about rearranging things....
I have you in my heart and my prayers...what a nightmare.
Oh, Mimi, that's so horrible! Give yourself time to recoup psychically. And, know I'm thinking about you, and for what it's worth...worrying, too.
Oh, how awful! I can't even imagine. I hope the jerk that did this to you is caught.
I'm so sorry Mimi. I do know how you feel as this has happened to me. It is a violation just short of rape. It's an ugly thing for you to have to go through. These folks wait for you to leave. They don't want confrontation. They watched you leave and then did their thing.
Don't worry about them coming back. Most of the theives that do this type of thing are drug addicts. They don't want confrontaion from anyone.
I am surprised they didn't take your laptop though. Big hug honey. I so know how violated you feel. :)
Like Sandee said, the worst thing about someone breaking into your home, or car for that matter, is the feeling of violation. I'm so sorry this happened to you. If there's anything you need, please let us know.
How could this SOB do this to anyone, let alone a friend. I've had my truck broken into before and it just sucks.
My Christian side will lift you up in prayer that you are safe and comforated. My human side wants to find the dirty dog and beat his little ass senseless!
oh mimi honey pie, i am soooo sorry this happened to you dear. it is beyond awful. there are no words. i send you hugs and love from our home to yours and hope in some teeny tiny way it helps a little.
bee
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I guess this answers my question as to how you're doing today versus how you were doing yesterday right after it happened.
I know it's next to impossible but please try to get some sleep. Sandee is right in that these guys will most likely not come back. They got whatever they wanted and won't run the risk of breaking in again but that probably doesn't make you feel any better in the here and now.
Take care and do what you have to do to get through this regardless of what that might be. I give you carte blanche. Mostly, though, be safe!!
Oh Mimi! I'm so sorry honey.
I'm thinking about you.
Mimi, Mimi. I am sooooo sorry this happened to you. I, like Sandee, can empathize as this has happened to me as well. The violation of one's private space is horrible, and the fear can be paralyzing.
My thoughts and prayers are with you as you come to grips with this horrible incident.
I've had it happen twice and understand your feeling violated.
Hoping you are feeling a little better, today.
Thank you all. It really helps to know you're here....so to speak. I've been distracting myself with some peace globe blogging tonight. I hope I can finally get some sleep. I appreciate your concerns and prayers so much.
Katherine - My quick trip to the store turned into two hours and unfortunately, I ran out without setting the alarm. Arrgh...never never again. Thanks for the prayers. I need them.
Kathleen - Knowing someone cares is worth so much. Thank you.
Bundle - I hope the fingerprints turn out well and will help catch them. Thanks.
Sandee - could use a hug about now. And I'm so sorry this has happened to you too. I was totally amazed that the laptop was here. The police wouldn't let me in the house for a long time (with melting groceries in the car) and I just knew it had to be the first thing they took as I waited outside to find out. I had just uploaded a video to my laptop I'd made of my grandson on Christmas Day and erased it from my camera. I was soooo glad it was still here...in plain view on the couch! Go figure. The police said laptops are very traceable and are left behind more than you would think. The big monstrous old computer in the other room, however, they had tried to unhook the hard drive and take. I think they ran out of time before they took everything they wanted. Except a box of checks (what a nightmare) and other things they could carry after making a total mess of things.
Lee - How kind of you. Well...I'm not hyperventilating now. That's a good thing!
Progress....
Jeff - I will take the prayers and I already feel comfort from them. Thank you.
As for the ass beating, you'll have to stand in line. There are several other folks ahead of you for that privilege. I'm gonna smack him in the head with a peace globe myself.
Bee - It helps a LOT to know you are there and sending good vibes. I will be OK. Just really can't believe it has made me so nervous. It is not like me to be "afraid" ......I don't like this feeling.
Linda - Yes, we chatted right about the time I was winding down from a spell of hyperventilation after the police left. I'm doing lots of things security wise, changing a few things around and having more lights installed this week. And then there are the "irrational" things like chairs under doorknobs (just for now) as added precaution just because it makes me feel better to see them there, arming the house differently while I'm here and TRYING to relax. Tonight is the first time I've really stopped thinking about it for awhile. Distracting myself with peace globe business and visiting blogs. .Thanks for being my buddy.
Travis - That means a lot.
Desert - The fear has to go. I can't stand this feeling. It's not like me but you're right....I do feel a bit paralyzed at the moment. I do think a little shock has set in. It's unsettling and you start to think about things differently. You think about everything differetly. Not feeling "safe" is a horrible way to be.
Ilovemylife - TWICE? I'm so sorry. This happened to me back in the seventies and they came back to get the rest of everything in the house two weeks after the first robbery as well. I don't want that to happen again. I hope Sandee and Linda are right about that not being the case this time.
This happened to a friend and they came back as soon as everything was replaced.they saw the boxes in the trash.
Install some burgler bars if you can, maybe some kind of home defense, or something.
This is a terrible thing to happen and I am so sorry it did.
Take care.
BIG HUGS. Stuff like that will always cause you more mental harm than anything. You will get over it, give yourself time to sort it out in your mind. I am sorry someone violated your home and life that way.
Hi Mimi,
I'am so sorry to hear this :(
This is horrible; savages !!!
Like all of your loyal subjects will agree, we are happy that you are safe and sound. Your safety is important.
I know that paranoid feeling... we have been robbed once ( nothing very important taken), but it is just unsettling afterwards.That will go away. You can use this fear "positively" to try and double your security methods also.
Stay calm and try and go on with your life.
XO
Barbara
Dear Mimi,
I am so sorry this happened to you. I wish there was some miracle pill to erase the feelings left behind by the thieves. I think you have a remarkably good perspective so shortly after enduring this. I guess it's like everything else, it's necessary to feel what you feel. Not sure if that makes sense. Know that you are in my heart and that I'm sending out good thoughts/prayers for you. As ever, Carver
Oh Mimi this is too bad. I'm sorry I wasn't here for you yesterday when you posted about it, I was out visiting.
Don't let it get to you honey, I'm thinking of you and sending oodles of Reiki to the situation to ease the upset. xx
Mimi, that's just horrible! I am sorry that happened, that you have to go through this. Yes, I completely understand...it's not as much the stuff as the feeling. Hang in there and hope all---including your feelings and sleep!---gets resolved soon!
Julie
Using My Words
Mimi, that is horrible. My human was robbed (not the day after Christmas) a few years ago. It's such a scary thing. I am glad you were gone. I hope that you find ways of getting back your peace and safety.
It was icky for us to see that someone had gone through our dresser. We were lucky that very little was missing--we think our neighbor surprised them.
However, they were there. That's something that's horrible.
We will purr for you.
Hammer - Some things have been set in motion already. That at least makes me feel a little better. Thanks for your concern.
Barbara - Yes, sorting out is the key. I feel like my mind is trying to figure this out but it's kinda stalled. Do you know what I mean? Need the hugs! Thank you. Hug back.
Barbara in France - I'm sorry you had to endure this as well. Doing something is helping. So are all of you.
Carver - It IS necessary for me to feel what I feel right now. And what I feel right now is anger and fear. Just being honest.
But this too shall pass. And I will work through it. Good friends help. Thank you.
Akelamalu - Reiki accepted and appreciated. You are special to do so. Thank you, my friend.
Julie - Working on the sleep part in bits and pieces. There's so much to do!
Cheysuli and Gemini - All purrs appreciated. I think there was someone watching out when I came back home and signalled them somehow to leave. The thought that someone was "watching" is one of the creepiest parts. Thank you for your friendship.
Taking a break for awhile this afternoon and finishing up with the cleaning tonight....or at least part of it hopefully!
I will keep you all posted.
Much love and appreciation to all of you! I don't feel so alone when I know we're "chatting"....thank you for letting me vent and whine a bit. I shall return.
Oh, Mimi I'm so sorry to read that this happened to you.
It happened a long time ago to me and my mother too...it was an awful feeling of being violated. They took a jewelry box that contained items with great sentimental value. It was so upsetting.
I'm sending thoughts and prayers and a big hug to you.
So much <3 coming your way, Mimi!!! And a virtual shoulder, should you need one. I had my car broken into once, but that's nothing compared to your whole house.. I hope they catch the butthead who did this to you.. if they do, let me know so I can go to the jail and kick him in the jimmies, ok?
<3 and many many hugs!!!!
Mimi, I'm so very sorry. I've had my cars broken into multiple times and plumbers working on our apartment once stole my husband's wedding band. So, I know exactly where you are. Know that I'm thinking of you and wishing you inner peace.
Oh Sweet Mimi! I'm so sorry and I'm not getting this info till Dec. 31st. I'll keep reading and hoping the assholes get caught.
**biggie hugs**
Oh Mimi, you want me to come there? You want me to deal those guys?
No one likes me to get angry...no one.
Oh gees...that could be a problem. A big one. My head spins around, I levitate on my bed, I curse filthy words. Seriously, I'm outta control! We've tried to have me exorcised, but it doesn't work. Zoloft, Nyquil, brandy...nada! Temper trantrums since I was two.
I am one scary babe! I could fly down on my broom if you'd like? will scare the bezeejussoutourske out of those guys!
Seriously. Did you ever see mean comments on my blog? Don't think so! Doesn't happen. I'm hilariously scary. Ever see my Einstein hair? I'm praying for you my friend...and seriously my broom is ready to take off.
I could wash you hair, we could play make up...I never did that before because I never did girly stuff. With four brothers you don't do girl stuff...
Let me know if you want my broom to take off my friend.
I'm so sorry to read about this. I've been slacking on my blog reading so I am just now getting around to learning of your robbery. So, do they have any leads or has any of your "stuff" turned up anywhere?
What a night mare. My in-laws went through the same sort of thing so I know how unsettling it can be.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
I am so sorry to read this...the *#@ &* Morons
Oh Mimi I am so so sorry to read about this.
I know the fear because our house was broken into one time. It is an awful feeling. I never did get over it. I never ever felt 100% safe again in that house. I will pray that you will be able to get over this. I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts.
I don't even know how to put into words just how very upset I am that this happened to you.
It seems last year was a very bad year for so many. I apologize for not getting here sooner but my blog was taken over at MBL,I lost all of my contacts and communities so I simply didn't know.
Oh it was a terrible year for us too. My dearest friend and sister-in-law passed away on December the 12th unexpectedly.
Someone whom I thought was a friend took over my blog at MBL and claimed it as his own.
And, today I had 23 tags on my profile page at MBL and one of the words was death. I am crying as I am writing because I so know how violated you feel.
I read your other post which lead me here. And I can understand what you said about being able to write. Right now my home is a mess, my blog is erractic and a disaster....one minute I am fine and then the next I am in tears and paranoid.
Just know that I am sending all of the strength that I can master up toward you and your way. And, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I apologize for the rambling but that seems to be the way it is going as of late.
Hugs,
Jackie
Oh my gosh Mimi!!! I am SO sorry that I was not here to offer my support and comfort during this horrible time! I am just so thankful that you are OK and that you weren't home. ((((((HUGS))))) to you, my friend. I am so sorry you had this happen to you!
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